Do coma - da primeira vez que morri

Going back on memory lane: 5.nov.92

A primeira vez que morri tinha 16 anos. Um vazio inexplicável. Tornou-se por demais evidente por que razão nascemos sozinhos e morremos sozinhos. Uma sensação de abandono que haveria, para o bem e para o mal, servir de farol a todos os meus caminhos (e acreditem, bem sinuosos).

E, até hoje, esta continua a ser a banda sonora da primeira vez que morri.

by fiona bacana


«Got your mind in submission
Got your life on the line
But nobody pulled the trigger - They just stepped aside
They be down by the water
While you watch 'em waving goodbye

They be callin' in the morning
They be hangin' on the phone
They be waiting for an answer, but you know nobody's home
And when the bell's stopped ringing, it was nobody's fault but your own

There were always ample warnings
There were always subtle signs
And you would have seen it comin'
But we gave you too much time
And when you said that no one's listening
Why'd your best friend drop a dime
Sometimes we get so tired of waiting
For a way to spend our time

And "It's so easy" to be social
"It's so easy" to be cool
Yeah it's easy to be hungry when you ain't got shit to lose

And I wish that I could help you with what you hope to find
But I'm still out here waiting, watching reruns of my life
When you reach the point of breaking know it's gonna take some time
To heal the broken memories that another man would need...Just to survive.»

Coma in Use your Illusion I